April 13 marks my first month in this company. I came here last March 12 and started coming to work on March 13. Within that one month period, so many things happened and I would say, so many things had changed in an instant. I have found new friends, get used to a new dwelling place, had seen a new town in Cambodia, a new environment, had been in Bangkok even for an overnight stay, met my new Boss, uses Thai Baht for the first time and uses Cambodian Riels again to purchase foods and stuff. The best part is I'm able to start anew. I remembered the first time I came here in Cambodia, that was more than four years ago. I was having mixed emotions that time. it's my first time to work in another country and stay away from my family. I have no idea what would be my life here. I'm not even sure if I could stand eating different foods, living in a different place, mixing with local people, speaking a different language and living in a culture which is definitely not my own. My first few months were a struggle, trying to adjust to my new life and environment. Everything did not come so easily. I had a culture shock and a had a hard time getting along with my new colleagues and staff. Needless to say, my first time working in another country did not seem to be favorable. I worked with people of strong personality and a tough heart. Those kind of people who are always waiting for you to commit mistakes. Those pessimists who would always see an ink spot in a pretty picture and a broken window pane in a palace. There were times that I felt like giving up. But the fighter in me prevails and staying where I am had been a very tough decision. I wanted to prove myself to everybody and prove my worth as a person. I believe in a saying that, "You could never put a good man down". I think that I have made a right decision. Hadn't been for my strong personality, I wouldn't be where I am now. Life is full of tricks and challenges and it's up to us to withstand the test of times. I'm still a human though. There were times when I cried non stop at night, having self pity and blamed myself for everything that's going through my life. Sometimes when I feel very down I would tell myself, "Okay lang, pwede namang umiyak eh" (it's okay, it's free to cry anyway). I have learned a lot of things on the process and I'm proud to say that I'm learning a lot.
Now I realized that the journey to life cannot always be traveled using a smooth road. There are lots of rough roads in between. But I also came into a realization that though life's journey cannot be traveled smoothly as there are lots of rough roads along the way which can be symbolized by life's so many challenges and hardships, fear not, cause you can always make a detour. :)
In this life we always have to be smart. Well...that's the essence of living and the beauty of surviving.