April 11, 2012

Changes....

April 13 marks my first month in this company. I came here last March 12 and started coming to work on March 13. Within that one month period, so many things happened and I would say, so many things had changed in an instant. I have found new friends, get used to a new dwelling place, had seen a new town in Cambodia, a new environment, had been in Bangkok even for an overnight stay, met my new Boss, uses Thai Baht for the first time and uses Cambodian Riels again to purchase foods and stuff. The best part is I'm able to start anew. I remembered the first time I came here in Cambodia, that was more than four years ago. I was having mixed emotions that time. it's my first time to work in another country and stay away from my family. I have no idea what would be my life here. I'm not even sure if I could stand eating different foods, living in a different place, mixing with local people, speaking a different language and living in a culture which is definitely not my own. My first few months were a struggle, trying to adjust to my new life and environment. Everything did not come so easily. I had a culture shock and a had a hard time getting along with my new colleagues and staff. Needless to say, my first time working in another country did not seem to be favorable. I worked with people of strong personality and a tough heart. Those kind of people who are always waiting for you to commit mistakes. Those pessimists who would always see an ink spot in a pretty picture and a broken window pane in a palace. There were times that I felt like giving up. But the fighter in me prevails and staying where I am had been a very tough decision. I wanted to prove myself to everybody and prove my worth as a person. I believe in a saying that, "You could never put a good man down". I think that I have made a right decision. Hadn't been for my strong personality, I wouldn't be where I am now. Life is full of tricks and challenges and it's up to us to withstand the test of times. I'm still a human though. There were times when I cried non stop at night, having self pity and blamed myself for everything that's going through my life. Sometimes when I feel very down I would tell myself, "Okay lang, pwede namang umiyak eh" (it's okay, it's free to cry anyway). I have learned a lot of things on the process and I'm proud to say that I'm learning a lot.

Now I realized that the journey to life cannot always be traveled using a smooth road. There are lots of rough roads in between. But I also came into a realization that though life's journey cannot be traveled smoothly as there are lots of rough roads along the way which can be symbolized by life's so many challenges and hardships, fear not, cause you can always make a detour. :)

In this life we always have to be smart. Well...that's the essence of living and the beauty of surviving.

Ciao!

15 comments:

  1. And if I may add, as they say, "When the going gets rough, the tough gets going." Saka sabi nga din ng kanta ni Kelly Clarkson, "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, stand a little taller..." Naka-relate ako kasi ganun din ako nung first few years ko sa Canada. Iiiyak na nga lang at itutulog ang lungkot, di ba? Pero life goes on and with God's grace, malalampasan mo din lahat :) Glad to hear you're getting pretty much settled now at your new job and place. Hugs!

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    1. You're definitely right KM! Life has to go on. I remembered my favorite line again sa "Don"t Quit". Rest if u must but don't u quit. Thanks for sharing your own story, too. Glad na mayroong nakakaunawa sa mga pinagdaanan ko.

      Hugs back to you Sis! :)

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  2. Ate Krizza, di kita nakakalimutan. Sobrang busy ko lang talaga. In fact, I had to end my relationship with you-know-who. Ganyan kabusy life ko these days. I only update my blogs kung may opps. I will be back on track pretty soon. Everything is making me crazy :|

    Thanks for this post! Nainspire naman ako! I need to read more articles like this. I will never forget this: "Now I realized that the journey to life cannot always be traveled using a smooth road. There are lots of rough roads in between."

    Hay naku, sana maging okay na lahat.

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    1. Hi Algene dear! nagulat naman ako sa revelation mo? Do u mean wala na kayo ni A? parang nabasa ko lang sa kabilang blog mo na andun pa sya nung graduation party mo ah. What happened? I felt sad naman sa sinabi mo.

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    2. OMG! We need explanation Algene! Haha mkikichismis na din Ako. Hahay! Buhay.

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  3. Learned a lot from this post sis. Bren and I have plans of working overseas pa naman base sa kwento ninyo ni KM parang damang -dama ko na ang lungkot at homesick. Just thinking na maiiwan ko si Bella parang ang hirap ata... Ewan ko bah...

    At least you stand firm and conquer it all and slowly you have find the right place for you...

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    1. Thanks Sis! Alam mo makakaya naman ang lahat eh kung maayos at okay ang mga work mates mo. malaking tulong yung may kabagang ka sa place na kinaroroonan mo. Mas doble ang lungkot kung katulad ng mga una kong nakasama sa work. Di masyado sa home sick kasi 2 to 3 times naman ako nauwi in a year. Mahirap lang talaga pag sobrang liit pa yung kid mo kasi parang nakakawang iwanan unlike sa case ko na malaki na sila nung naiwan ko.

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  4. kalungkot naman :( pero a fighter will always be a fighter! By God's grace, kaya niyo po yan :)

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    1. Thanks a lot Jonna, That helps! :)

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  5. Naluha Ako while reading this post thru email. Life is tough talaga noh. But I'm very glad to know that you're going strong despite all the hardship. And I like that line that you're telling yourself. Crying helps coz it eases the pain somehow Kaya cry ka Lang when you need to. Ako man ay ganyan din when Im nabibigatan. So, take care sis. I pray that God always bless you with everything that you deserve. God bless. Once again, na hit na naman ang puso ko sa post mong to. Misses you. Just blog, were here para damayan ka in happiness and sadness. Kering Keri ng mga bakla yan tulad ko at ni KM. hihi. Sama mo na si ate rovs. Muah!

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    1. Thanks a bunch Ning! Napaluha na naman pala kita sa post ko. Malaking factor talaga sa akin na natuto ako mag blog. Malaking outlet to para malibang ako especially nung nakilala ko kayong lahat. Parang nagkaron ako ng karamay pag malungkot ako.

      Thanks for always being there! :)

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    2. Yaan mo sis. Record ulit Ako song for you and to all who can relate to your story. Abangan mo yan. I hope that it'll make you fell better.

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    3. Feel better I mean. Kainis may automatic change mga words. Huhu

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    4. Gora na sa recording Ning para mas bonggang paglilibang kay Sis Krizza...

      Ingat ka dyan lagi sis... Nandito lang kami for you. Group Hug :-)...

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  6. hello dear! how have you been? i hope you're having a good time. btw, i just nominated you :) please check out my latest entry. You just deserve it! thank you. xo-jonna-xo

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